Week One

Well I didn’t think it would happen but I survived my first week on placement!  That’s me one quarter of the way through the first one so I am slowly progressing towards graduation.  I am excited because I am probably getting to go see some surgery during the week.  As long as I don’t faint in the theatre it should be a fantastic learning experience.

Uni were supposed to call yesterday for their weekly chat with me – this was part of the agreement with occ health.  They are supposed to contact me at least once a week to see how I am getting on and whether I am coping.  Needless to say they didn’t phone.  What’s new?  They don’t give a fuck about how I am coping.

My parents have booked a holiday for us in a few weeks.  It was really nice of them as I can’t afford to go away.  The only problem with going on holiday is the joy that is arranging travel insurance.  I guess that it is something people take for granted unless they do have a health problem.  The amount of companies that cover everything including heart attacks but will not cover someone with a mental health or psychological condition is ridiculous.  Basically with some of the ones that would take me they want as much money as the holiday cost, which is ridiculous.  I think I am now organised after scouring the internet for a few hours yesterday.

Speaking of psychology, I am still finding it a complete waste of time.  I don’t know why I struggle with it so much.  We just end up disagreeing all the time.  Apparently I am not very emotionally connected with my past, and when I am I don’t show it.  I am very factual and analytical which is apparently not a good thing.  I don’t see how I can do anything other than recopgnise the things that have happened and the effect they have on me, I don’t feel the need to reexperience the emotions that I felt during the worst part of my life.  Why would anyone?

Lots of studying to do over the weekend in order to be fully read up for next week.  It is driving me nuts being asleep by 11pm every night, I know I need to do it in order to get up for 6am but I am a total night person and feel like I am missing out in the time I usually do spend doing things by going to bed early.

I just need to find fun things to do over the weekend which don’t cost money – you’d be surprised how difficult this is to do sometimes, especially living in a city centre, it’s just so tempting to go shopping.

Further updates hopefully during the week.

Kx